NO FEAR (oh the nike commercials...)

soo. a lot has been going on in my life lately. And yet nothing...
I am in the long and arduous process of learning to live without fear. not in its shadow, not letting it hold me back, not letting it keep me from living and BEing.
no thing, no person, no assumption, no ministry, no organization, no odds, no fear. i will never live and do and be what i was made to do and be if i always assume i am not good enough or pretty enough or competent or useful or skilled in any way.
CONFIDENCE. that is the word of the day. or the year(s). so dog-gone it, i will try out. and i will ask someone to the Red Rose Ball. and i will befriend any and all, even when they don't want me to. i will chase my dreams and Jesus' face whatever that means, however stupid i have to look or humble i have to be made. i will smile, because it is me and Jesus, and what else do i need? i will love, because i can't help but overflow the flood in me. i will dance because i can't help but move with music all around me.
you know, at one point, i thought i was doing these things. and i look back now and see how much futher i can go, how much truer it should be. so someday, i am sure i will look back on where i am headed now, and see how much further i can go and how much truer it should be. i guess that's just the thing they call LIFE.