Light...?

finally back in athens. and it is SO weird. this year is already so different from the last. besides living in the AOPi house. [imean really? is it really necessary keep on switching the light on and off, or whatever that clicking noise is? REVELATION: it is the staple gun. we are supposed to decorate our doors. necessary, i suppose, but still a bit unnerving.]
i read a quote that is on my bulletin board at home the other day, and it was such a good reminder. something like, 'do not pray for tasks equal to your strength, but pray for strength equal to your tasks' then it ended with something i can't remember, but it made the point that by the strength in us that is not ours, we ourselves are a miracle. i am not sure i could feel more inadequate or unwise or young or little. ok, so i'm sure i could. but. either way, i think it is a wonderful place to be, because then i can't do anything to mess up what He will.
while writing a comment on someone else's blog just a few minutes ago, something came out that had to be from Jesus. i said i'd really rather be blinded by the light than by darkness. and that's kind of what it is like, i think. [humor me...it might be a stretch...] i would rather feel in the dark in the midst of His splendor that be bumbling around. when i am blinded by light, sometimes i am incapacitated because i see things as they are. ok i am done. beginning to make no sense i think.