Friends...CAPS...call me Thomas

Friends are such a beautiful thing. It is so easy to see bits and pieces of Jesus in them. And sometimes I'll get a glimpse of His whole eye, or section of His heart. Beautiful. Had a MARVELOUS time with some STUNNING hearts (and faces, too) tonight. I mean, any evening including chicken salad, a good cry, ice cream, dressing up, taking pictures, dancing, and other such fun things, not including the aforementioned STUNNING counterparts, makes for a FABULOUS night.
I am trying to work on my punctuation. I have fallen into the typical collegiate slothfulness--leaving capitals and grammar and correct punctuation far behind. I like to write like I would speak. Or rather, I just do. So I'm not sure what I can do about the technical grammar. However, I CAN do something about capitalizing sentences and 'I'. So. This is my effort.
And the bold feature is so difficult to use on this thing. Maybe I'm just challenged in technical things. And I am. So I resort to CAPS. Whatever works, I guess. I really like the CAPS feature.
The story of doubting Thomas from John 20 is in my mind tonight. (pet peeve...tonite...) Jesus shows him. He proves Himself, when He has no obligation to Thomas. And while He seems to gently reprimand him, more than focusing the negative on Thomas, He says "Blessed are those who do not see and still believe." Jesus shows up, right in front of my face when i doubt. When i am faithless, He is faithful. And yet...He tells me, right now, right where I am, to believe without seeing. And i don't see. Yeah, I can see Him at work in and around me in MIGHTY ways. I know He is there...but in certain areas of my heart...certain dreams, certain territories...I do not see anything at all. I don't understand. I don't get it...not the seeming lack of answers, not the uncertainty, not the tears, not the waiting. BUT. He calls me to believe even when I don't see.
So here I go. Jesus, increase my faith. Move the mountains before me as I stare at Your face.